Weekdays as weekends

Well, I know people will hate the fact that, the ones who get jobs easily will leave it easily too. I'm not denying it, but I guess I would love to clarify things better in my own view. People have feelings. People tend to get hurt easily. People have rights to choose what they really want in lives. People will decide what to do and what to avoid and the most ultimate reason is people will sacrifice anything just to get something. yes when I say ANYTHING it means a lot.

I love my previous job so much. I cried myself every morning to bid farewell to my irresistible Vono bed just to make sure I'll be on time. I had to avoid congested highway every weekdays to be in mentally and physically good at the office. Lucky for the engineers [I don't care how you get through things] who didn't have to spend entire dawn to get ready for work like me. I maybe work the least important role in the office, but trust me, I was heavily burden with your ultimate mood-swings and load of works daily. I have to act like robotic person with no inner feelings to make sure things are in excellent ways as I don't get blamed of. 

Then, this is the powerful decision to be made in this short time I guess. I learned the hard way not to get bored easily when it comes to earn pocket money. It is also counted as I hate to be the puppet that must always smile to enlighten your gloomy days. Yes, I really don't want to act like the owner of a company where I only earn the least for God sake. Just put yourself in my shoes and try to survive a day as me and try to love this life of mine.

I should put myself to be happy for what I'm done, yet I have not guilty as well. I am a normal human who try my world to fit in the society. I learn my lessons through 'trials and errors' method and still I hate to hurt the ones I actually care so much. I'm dearly want to apologize to everyone who loves me the way I was[am] and please just let me feel the pain once in a while because I would love to gain experience and grab so much memories on my own in my dirty ways.

Today as I clarify it as a weekend, I enjoy my golden [actually diamondness] time with Alyaa and Fatin to the bits. It's not so lavish but it worth a world to me. I miss this time as I will miss it soon. I want to enjoy everyday in my life with no guilty feelings for others because, this is one life to live for and I don't want to waste it just for other's sake!